There are days when I really do feel like a shining example
of health and wellness. I eat right, I go to the gym, and I drop pounds like
they’re hot. However, there are other days when I look in the mirror and still
see a fat person. It makes no difference that my clothes are starting to get
too big, or that the scale gives me good news every day. I could walk around
feeling awesome, and then see myself in a picture or in the window reflection,
and I’m instantly obese. I find it so sad that I defeat myself this way.
I have lost 18 lbs since I made a new commitment to health.
I have established a new schedule, have made working out a priority, and have
really changed the way I eat, and what I eat. I feel great – really so much
better than I did even a month ago. The changes I've made are positive,
life-affirming, and REAL. If I were a better person, I would be happy with the
progress I've made, and not concern myself with outside appearances. If I were
a better person.
How can I be a shining example of health and wellness when
in my heart I still think I look like a failure?
Please know that I am not fishing for compliments. Really, I’m
not. I only write what I have because I KNOW there are others out there who
feel the EXACT same way. If we still feel the same way we've always felt on the
inside, it really doesn't matter how good we look on the outside, am I right?
I think it’s time for me to change my blueprint, and to
challenge some of you to do the same. It’s time for us to start reprogramming our
brains to accept what we see in the mirror as just what we are INSIDE – not fat
or thin – just us. I’m working toward a better image, but right now, my
reflection is… just me. I already love myself on the inside. I’m kind, funny,
and dynamic. I’m loud and impertinent. I’m joyful and I laugh from my toes.
Maybe I need to train myself to see those qualities in the mirror, and nothing
else. Wish me luck. I wish you the same.
Today starts Image Boot Camp for me, and hopefully for you. I will try my hardest to feel as confident about my appearance as I do about my personality. It'll take some work. It'll be hard. But it'll be worth every single glimpse.
First of all, I am so proud of you! 18 lbs, that is fantastic!! More fantastic is that you're doing it the right way. Keep going, lady.
ReplyDeleteAs far as Image Boot Camp, I have been struggling with the same thing. I think, for me, it's more that I am mad and frustrated that I have been this unhappy for this long with my body when the power to change it has always been there. I beat up on myself because of it, rather than focus on the positive changes that are happening now. I hope that with time and focus I can let that self-anger go, because it is what causes me to sabotage myself.
I can't wait to hear more about Image Boot Camp, and what you are doing to bring your inside out!
I can't wait to share what I'm doing! I think I'll start Image Boot Camp next week, and maybe we'll all learn a little about loving ourselves! You're a BEAUTIFUL woman, Catie!
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